Alma/Lyrics

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tHAhnJbGy9M&list=PLXOXrT2HL4bDthcbD5Ivs27A1iW7V7lp4 (some of these are not on youtube)

Opening credits - Run Lola Run

All the possibilities. Alive. voices. running. yes! Imperative YES. To the universe, "I exist."

"At the end of our exploring we shall not cease from exploration . . . and the end of all of our exploring will be to arrive where we started. . . and know the place for the first time." - T.S. Eliot

"After the game is before the game" - Sepp Herberger

"The ball is round. The game lasts 90 minutes. That's a fact. everything else is pure theory. Off we go!"

Marquee Moon - Television

Could be a Flashback to how she meet None while going crazy. It didn't happen exactly like this way. and this is her own version of a "full moon".

I spoke to a man
Down at the tracks
And I ask him
How he don't go mad
He said 'Look here junior, don't you be so happy
And for Heaven's sake, don't you be so sad'

Blue Lips - Regina Spektor

She died of hypothermia by following a voice in to the cold.

I like so many of the lyrics...

"He stumbled in to faith/God this is all that there is" and with breathing pictures arising in his mind.

And tragic human condition that this character would be trying to tell people about as they marched down the same railroad tracks she stopped at.

They started off beneath the knowledge tree
Then they chopped it down to make white picket fences
They marched along the railroad tracks
And smiled real wide for the camera lenses
They made it past the enemy lines
Just to become enslaved in the assembly lines

On The Radio - Regina Spektor

Alma starting to wake up, learning how to do things, but this is also about her general temper in life even before she wakes.

This is how it works
You're young until you're not
You love until you don't
You try until you can't
You laugh until you cry
You cry until you laugh
And everyone must breathe
Until their dying breath

No, this is how it works
You peer inside yourself
You take the things you like
And try to love the things you took
And then you take that love you made
And stick it into some
Someone else's heart
Pumping someone else's blood
And walking arm in arm
You hope it don't get harmed
But even if it does
You'll just do it all again

Pressure - My Brightest Diamond

Working hard, getting overwhelmed. This is like when a person is overdoing it without realizing it. They'll get more and more worn down and ultimately if a stressor happens they might spiral in to illness.

I feel the weight of a billion years
(but) I try to do it alright
Working hard, little delight
I forgot the sound

(So bright/heavy/wild cannot mine/tame/name)
...I try to do it alright

Upside Down & Inside Out - Ok Go

Wake up time. It was confusing. It was giddy. It was frightening. It was glorious and colorful and full of joy. But maybe sometimes you'd want to vomit.

So when you met the new you
Were you scared?
Were you cold?
Were you kind?
Yeah when you met the new you
Did someone die inside?

Ghost - Neutral Milk Hotel[1]

Going crazy with agitation towards fate. feeling a mix of helplessness and power. (Jeff Magnum wrote this album while thinking of Ann Frank.)

Ghost, ghost I know you live within me
I feel you as you fly
In thunder clouds above the city
Into one that I love

With all that was left within me
Until we tore in two
Now wings and rings and there's so many
Waiting here for you

Running One - Run Lola Run

edginess/agitation/energy going on. The kind that's building up from more and more stressors but which also digs up insight and productivity.

Where Do I Begin - The Chemical Brothers featuring Beth Orton

blissed out. not just magic, but life.

Where do I start
Where do I begin

Where do I start
Where do I begin

and reminds me of this, ...plus lots of sex.

Try not to localize the mind anywhere, but let it fill up the whole body, let it flow throughout the totality of your being. When this happens you use the hands where they are needed, you use the legs or the eyes where theyare needed, and no time or energy will go to waste. - Takuan

Green Grass of Tunnel - Múm

More calming and acceptance. a relaxed letting go and gaining insight from flocks... from static... from... existence.

Down from my ceiling
Drips great noise.
...

And when I'm swimming in
through a tunnel
I shut my eyes.

We're All in This Together - Ben Lee

The experience of gaining insight from friends.

woke up this morning
i suddenly realized
were all in this together
i started smiling
cos you were smiling
and were all in this together
im made of atoms
youre made of atoms
and were all in this together
and long division
just doesnt matter
cos were all in this together

i saw you walking
in the city
were all in this together
the city's changing
cos we are changing
and were all in this together
every twelve seconds
someone remembers
that were all in this together
in the kitchen
of your rent-control apartment
were all in this together

cmon baby
i dont mean to rush you
i only wanted to reach out and touch you
ive gotta start to open my heart

i know you think
about jumping ship before it sinks
but were all in this together
ask a scientist
its quantum physics
were all in this together
and on the subway
we feel like strangers
but were all in this together
yeah i love you and you love her
and she loves him
but were all in this together

yknow baby
theres never been protection
in all the history of human connection
cmon darling
its alright to show me
you dont ever need to be lonely
once you start to open your heart

i saw you crying
i started crying
cos were all in this together

and then religion
its a big decision
but were all in this together

were all in this together

The Art of Flying - Jan van IJken

a murmuration. creepy. so much for that feel good song, huh?

See Emily Play - Pink floyd

Trying over and over and over to get something done. Sometimes in futility, but with an unselfconsciousness earnestness and work. And I think of Syd Barrett and wonder if she'll follow his road somehow. and how much insight will she have in her life. how much misunderstanding and futile searching. what will it come to in the end. Will she be like Syd?

Emily tries but misunderstands, ah ooh
She's often inclined to borrow somebody's dreams till tomorrow
There is no other day
Let's try it another way

You'll lose your mind and play
Free games for May
See Emily play

Soon after dark Emily cries, ah ooh
Gazing through trees in sorrow hardly a sound till tomorrow
There is no other day
Let's try it another way
You'll lose your mind and play

Free games for May
See Emily play

Put on a gown that touches the ground, ah ooh
Float on a river forever and ever, Emily (Emily)

There is no other day
Let's try it another way
You'll lose your mind and play
Free games for May
See Emily play

All the Rowboats - Regina Spektor

smash all the violin display cases. bring paintings to life and let the rowboats float away. fuck the death of time.

Untilted #1 Vaka - Sigur Rós

Trying over and over and over but in a state of relaxation and acceptance. with voices in an imaginary but almost recognizable language. (hopelandic).

You sigh low tonight
You're so alone
You're so
You sigh low tonight
You're so alone
You're so
You're so low
You're so alone
You're so
You sigh low
You sigh low
You're so
(you're so)

you sigh low tonight
You're so alone
You're so
You sigh low tonight
You're so alone
You're so
You're so low
You're so alone
You're so
You sigh low
You sigh low
You're so

I Can Change - Lake Street Drive

We didn't start this, but we're stuck with the consequences. Can we fight destiny? What do we we choose?

fuck predestination.

Eet - Regina Spektor

This song? Again? That's what happens when you get a mind wipe.

You Don't Own Me - Rasputina

Obvious. No tradition owns her.

The Chicken Man - Indigo Girls

(lyrics)

He sold me junk and conversation

Alma is all about finding accidents and discarded or broken things. and, there are always multiple overlays to an event. multiple things to perceive and interpret. Finding someone who sells trash is one thing, but there was a conversation that gave equivalent value. That's another thing.

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All the carnage of my journeys
Makes it hard to be living
He said it's a long road to be forgiven

And one more life for the taker
Chickenman chickenman chickenman
Hold my hand

This is the kind of conversation someone would have who couldn't accept their tradition.

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I am an only child
Born of the wild
Riddled to spend my time
Defending my land